There is more to life than just here and now...

"This world is fading away, along with everything it craves. But if you do the will of God, you will live forever" 1 John 2:17


As of this writing, the clock strikes at 12:00 and it marks the 43rd anniversary of the day I was born. Special events such as this makes me reflect and ponder on more important things other than what I would like to get as a birthday present. But first, I am thankful for the gift of life. I thought that life is such a precious gift and that I am blessed every single day. That I am made wonderfully for a reason. I knew for sure that I am not an accident, long before I am conceived by my parents, I'm pretty sure, I am conceived in the mind and plan of my Creator. That I am for who I am, for a purpose. That I am part of His intricate perfect plan...

All my life, I have been driven by something...hopes, dreams, goals, circumstances, values, faith, emotions, even pressures and deadlines! But at the end of the day, life is not all there is...that it's not about me, there is more to life than just here and now...this life is just a preparation for the next.

Knowing our purpose gives meaning to our lives. We were made to have meaning. When life has meaning, we can bear almost anything, without it, nothing is bearable. Without God, life has no purpose, and without purpose, life has no meaning. Without meaning, life has no significance nor hope...Nothing matters more than knowing God's purposes for our lives, and nothing can compensate for not knowing them.

God has a purpose for our lives on earth but it doesn't end here. God has....planted eternity in every human heart. It's more than opportunity of a lifetime. It's way beyond our lifetime. We are made to love Him and to last forever, for His plans endure forever! \0/

Have you ever wonder what's your purpose on earth?

Be still

“Be still, and know that I am God” {Psalm 46:10}

Stillness and quietness are rare. We don't always know how to achieve them, least how to handle them. But for the sake of marriage, we need televisionless, phoneless, computerless and workless time together. We all need solitude for our individual lives but we also need marital solitude....

I must admit, it has been a little while now since my spouse and I have a 'marital solitude' that's free from distractions. We are equally busy with so many things...to name few -– work, kids' school and extra activities, chores, errands not to mention browsing, facebooking, blogging and the likes! So we badly need a marital solitude and quiet time very soon! And I know it won't just happen by itself...I've gotta make it happen....just like my time with God alone, I must plan my time alone with my hubby too.

But before I allow excuses to rule out any of these possibilities, I guess I have to put my schedule in writing and make sure we both mark and synch our iCalendars. And then I would have to put a little bit more effort on actually doing it. Eventually, I would require creativity and flexibility in my options though. And learn to discover new and fresh approach too.

Seriously? most married couples are surrounded with multitude pressures and stressful activities, but these pressures and stress we must often escape are not those we create for ourselves but those brought into our lives from the outside.

So, to put my two cents in, I think a key to keeping a cherished relationship alive maybe found in breaking away from distractions frequently enough to keep ourselves fresh and our love growing...afterall, relationship is a living thing~~it has to grow and it needs a good cultivating, weeding, watering and what else? Sunshine of course!

"Don't Worry"

It seems there isn't much to write about what's going on with me these days...but I have lists upon lists and crazy schedules since my kids were back to school.

My son is now in Grade 7 and their class is going to kick off the fall school term with a “dig camp” called “The Odyssey Archeology Programme”. They are going to do a 4-days/3-nights simulated archeological excavation at Panorama Ridge. The program will focus on Science for the study of human skeletal parts, Social Studies for the ancient Greek cities, Language and Literature for Homer's Odyssey, and Math for statistics, grid and triangulation system for measurements and locations, and dating methods for the artifacts being dug/found and a little bit of PE and even Arts.

Therefore, whether I don't let my son go is out of question as it is a requirement in the upper intermediate curriculum. After the “dig camp”, there's supposed to be a very stiff “dig exam”, and once they passed this dig stage, they can qualify to go for the next field trip/camping in March to UBC (University of British Columbia) and write a 10-page essay of a subject of their choice. Whew!!! I can't believe this is a curriculum of a Grade 7 class. It sounds so interesting and exciting. I also think it is a very intense and challenging hands-on program, something you can't find in a regualr four-wall classrooms. It's defintely going to be a huge exploration experience for all Walnut Road Elementary School seventh graders!

At first I thought, sure why not, but as I was browsing on the list of what they are suppose to bring, I started to worry, the students need to set up their own tents, prepare their breakfasts, set the bonfires, and so on ...panic was starting to build up thinking the temperature drops at night, even 2 sleeping bags won't be enough to keep them warm. During our camping this mid July, it gotten so cold at night up until early morning....and here's the perturbing thoughts:-- who's supposed to remind him to put on extra blanket? who's gonna remind him to zip on the sweatshirt and put on the hoody? who's gonna tell him not to mix the clean clothes with the dirty and soiled ones, and other stuff! He is just twelve years old and my baby! Besides I had never let any of my children out of my sight even for one night, not even a sleep over! So suddenly, I was left with this letting-go issues....

But after a chat with my husband, I did the right thing to do....I gave my thoughts and fears to God and asked for peace for myself and protection for my son, then I felt much better. There isn't much time to think about it, I have to hand over the form with my approval the following day. And there's the list of supplies that is ridiculously long! Aside from warm different types of clothing & toilettress, Andrew has to bring excavation equipments and camp equipments.

Even I am struggling with my letting-go issue, in my opinion, this camp is a very brilliant idea for these young kids to be able to experience important events in their pre-teens educational stage, as a matter of fact, this actually sounds like a real fun! This reminds me of my girl-scout Jamboree experience I had when I was in Grade 6. On a very positive note, I think it's also a good way for them to learn the hands on aspects of → team work, responsibility, decision-making and co-operation with other peers. It's very encouraging to know that my son and his classmates will develop significant things in the process, such as → sense of empathy, respect, patience, perseverance, and endurance.

I felt more comfortable after reading the whole program though. The students were placed under teams and Andrew was placed under “Oxford University” team....the other ones were Harvard, Princeton, Cambridge and of course UBC. I am also confident that this experience is going to be a great challenge for all the students not only to my son and for sure it is a very worthwhile one. From the newsletter, I've read that this program was organized and founded by Andrew's teacher and another school teacher, sometime 20 years ago with some Grade 8 students up to university graduates to serve as instructors, team security and supervisors, all of them have experienced “dig camp”. And it was awarded few times for an Outstanding Merit for all of Canada and then later the documentary film was distributed throughout Canada and US elementary schools. It is obvious that with this standard, the entire team really works hard. So my son is extremely excited to be part of it! I really felt his enthusiasm and interests. I am also happy and excited for him. And I'm pretty sure he will have lots of fun.

He assured me though that he will be alright and added that I should “not worry” at all. He is right, I should not worry at all and should start trusting my son that he is also capable of looking after himself. The key word is “Do not worry”! It hits me hard. This phrase can be found in Philippians 4:6-7. It says....”Do not be anxious about anything, but everything, by prayer and petition, with thanksgiving, present your requests to God. And peace of God, which transcends all understanding, will guard your hearts and your minds in Christ Jesus.”

Oh what an assurance we have in Jesus!

The truth is-- there are so many things to be anxious about in my world, and probably in your world too. So, how do we deal with it? For me the bible offers some wise counsel as we face difficulty. As Paul wrote this, he was in prison. His words are practical because he was facing a very grim future, yet he pens these profound words....”Do Not Worry”.

That's right, I think I shouldn't...\o/

quiet times

Stillness. Quiet. Silence.

Do you ever hear the sounds of silence?

They are there...in their own way they speak loudly. Quietness for some is a way of life. It can be a time to reflect, a time to recover, a time to grieve, a time to rejoice or a time to listen to God. For some reason, quietness for others is uncomfortable. A deafening silence. An eerie silence. Solitary. Or avoidance of discussing something. Muted. Hushed. Withdrawn into a sullen silence...

Quietness for me is to seek rest....A time to reflect for a moment and to create a spiritual intimacy....a deepest kind of intimacy. A time that gives me a sense of serenity and an absolute kind of peace....A time to have a connection with God in a very comfortable and settling way, a time to listen to what He has to say to me.....A time to give thanks and to utter my prayers, a time where I can tell Him how awesome He is!..... sometimes, I thought of it as my personal routine of rejuvenating my mind, body and spirit. Where I can rest and seek His grace and strength. To feel revived, refreshed and new every morning.

No one said that it would be easy or comfortable to be quiet...In my case, I have to confront the barriers and obstacles that will prevent me from achieving my peace and quiet time,......time schedules have to be juggled, and most of all, outside interruptions and intrusions are needed to be blocked. Definitely--planning ahead, making everything simple and an honest-to-goodness commitment would work-out for me, not necessarily in-that- order or for that matter.

You see....when we fill our lives with so much activities and busyness, that's the time that we have the tendency to forget to pause, to reflect and barely have the time to talk or least to rest. Then we hardly find the time to pray....But there are times in the midst of our most hectic day when we need to close the door, log-off from our lappy, unplug the phone, switch off that TV, sit down in our favorite chair, lean back, and close our eyes...and just be still--in the presence of God....when we are under pressure and feel like everything is collapsing around us...it's the best time to seek God's peace and rest....and you know what? ---the busiest day of our lives is the best day to do it...you'll be surprised, it is THE time you need it the most. It is for me.

"Be still, and know that I am God........" Psalm 46:10

Welcomes 2010 with a Big Bang!

HaPPy NeW YeAr!

How was everyone's new year so far? Well, I have been doing great actually, so far so good....I am so excited as I welcome and embrace this new decade...I have a very good feeling that it's going to be a good one this year if not a better one! However, in order to embrace the new year, one must release the old, we cannot swing from one bar to another unless we let go of the other!

Admit it... You made a few resolution this year, just like the last. In fact, you may have even stuck to a few of them. Year after year, you commit to make changes. Stop doing this... start doing that... and you know what? You're not alone!

Several of you would probably say “here we go again, another year and another stack of resolutions down the proverbial drain” But No, not this year - all excuses have expired...and mind you, life is getting shorter plus clock is ticking away....so let's put it this way--this time it will be different, and it's all about a 'good plan' that really works anyway.

Generally, tradition almost dictates that every 365 days, one has to kick bad habits and should start life anew. Most peopleto try to make the dreaded New Year’s Resolution, a solemn promise for themselves to completely change who and what they are.

Personally, that's not really the case for me-- it's more of a reflection of the past and a projection of the future sort-of-thing for me. I do make my own check list, though it's always easier said than done you know, but I try to look back and see what has been done and what's not been done and that includes my personal, professional, health and wellness and most importantly spiritual aspects of my life. Before the past year unfolds and the new year begins, I sort of gather my thoughts, mull over and then look forward to a newer plans, conceivable projections, and bigger dreams, and perhaps, raise the bar more higher, as I'm sure most of you do the same thing. Overall, I try to be a better person that I can be, thriving to live a more healthier, happier and fulfilling life.

I am happy to say that the most part of my wish lists were carried out and even succeeded with flying colors, and that took a lot of prayers, practice and perseverance, though few of them, the ones that I considered not conceivable anyways for that matter were unfulfilled and I am usually inclined to bring it forward for the next year's.

I am inspired and more encouraged when I realize that I have the chance to reflect upon on what I did, how I felt, what I didn't liked and what I have learned every year. I can look at myself and my experience with as much objectivity as I can. I got to start thinking over the past year or perhaps over the past decade...to learn from it and to go where I wish to go and be whom I wish to be...and to check once again what my priorities are.

There are endless questions that comes to mind...such as --What did I accomplish? Would I have done it differently? What were the most significant events in the past decade? the biggest challenges, toughest roadblocks, my biggest contributions? Did I make any difference at all? ....or for what I am particularly grateful?

What about you? Have you thought of this year's 2010 wish list? Whatever is your new year's wish list, hope you set a far more specific and achievable goals this time. As for me and my family, we will aim for things that are truly important to us, not what we think we ought to do or what others expect of us.

And so dear friends........as we start the year, it seems particularly fitting to devote ourselves sometime to reflect and give thanks for numerous blessings we have received and let our hearts process and prepare us for a more positive and fruitful new year ahead of us.

And remember to fully enjoy every single moment (or year) of your life's journey! :-)

Live, learn and love!

things i am thankful

Because of our busy lives, we barely have the time to reflect on the good things that we have, so when Thanksgiving Day comes, we get the chance to reflect on the things we are most thankful about. There are a lot of things I am thankful about, here’s few of them; --

I am thankful for our great God who enables me when I can’t bring about things on my own, a God who upholds me and keeps me going, a God who fills me up when there’s an empty space in between. I thank Him a lot for He holds me close and carries me every single step of the way. I’ll forever thank God for having had the chance to meet few special people who walked me through and introduced me to Jesus.

I am thankful for my family. I am thankful for my husband and children, they are always been my inspiration, my great motivations and my biggest cheerleaders. They believe in me when I gave them the reasons to do so. In return, they bring out the best in me.

I am thankful for my health, while I could certainly spare to drop a few pounds here and there and do a bit of exercise regimen, but that’s not about it. I haven’t been well before, I have dealt with couple of health issues, splitting-severe-migraines for one, but I thank God that I haven’t had any episode for almost a year now, and that overall, my body, mind and spirit are in one accord. I am thankful that God gives me the strength I need to cope up and overcome such difficulty. I am grateful that God has been so gracious to me.

I am thankful for job, a job that suits my needs and preferences. A job that makes me excited to go to work, ready to face the challenges of the day and be able to deliver what I am expected to do. This job helps my family a lot in as much as my siblings back home to enable to support the education of my nieces and nephews. Most of all, this job allows us to be able to save some for my kids’ college education, travel and retirement.

I am thankful for a bunch of good and true friends, old and new ones, who’s been truly incredible. Without them I wouldn't have close people to talk to when times get tough or have someone to share good news with. I've had some wonderful times with my friends and will keep on having wonderful times in the future.

I am thankful for my church, wherein my family and I can be connected and feel the sense of belongingness, and be able to meet other people that share with the same purpose, that is to praise and serve God.

I am thankful for my everyday challenges, big or small, without my struggles there is no learning and therefore no progress. Failures make me humble while mistakes refine the rough edges in my character. So, for the times I've failed and that I've been wrong, I'm thankful as they'll help me do better in the years to come.

I am thankful that I have been given a gift that no amount of money can buy. I am thankful for love, inner peace and for life.

the aftermath of typhoon 'Ondoy'

It suddenly came like a triple bolt out of the blue for which no one was prepared. The typhoon Ketsana also known as ‘Ondoy’ began on Friday evening with rain and wind warnings from the local PAGASA weather centre. Utterly unrelenting, the rains quickly turned into floods and by Saturday afternoon, the whole Metro Manila was swamped. With the heaviest precipitation in 40 years, typhoon Ketsana ‘Ondoy’ dropped about 17 inches of rain on the Philippine capital, equevalent to a month’s worth of rainfall all in 24 hours! At the height of the flood, about 80% of Manila was submerged. The storm affected some 2 million people, wreaking havoc on both lives and land.

Unexpected strong currents pushed flood waters into people’s homes, turned many of Manila’s busy streets into swimming pools and tossed floating vehicles around as if they were toys. Survivors were rescued from the roofs of their homes, some after 10-hour waits in the cold downpour. No one was spared…

When I heard this alarming news, I was like – in total disbelief! It’s sort of a big blow and it hits me hard. First thing that came to my mind was to call upon the Lord and ask for His help to protect my people. And then later that day, I get the chance to watch the breaking news on CNN and had seen dozens and dozens of unbearable photos slides over the internet - I was in tears…it's painful to watch my own people suffer... there's this achy lump in my throat, and it hurts like a bad sore, and while I watch my fellow Filipinos desperately gripping so hard and doing their best efforts to save their very lives....the pain just swell even more...

Ketsana’s destructive impact left behind Philippines in pain, anguish and in sorrow. Filipinos were devastated and fearful for their lives brought by Ondoy’s wrath. Hundreds of photos and video clips show debris from the typhoon which left hundreds of people dead and hundreds of thousands homeless, still scatters squatter areas. Trash, mud, water, woes afflicts hard-hit areas such as Provident Village. The desolation was palpable. The devastation and desperation was unbearable...

The photos shows residents of Manila do their best to come to grips with life.

No books – no classes
Elementary students, done so far all ways to dry their textbooks following the flood.

Playground amidst trash and debris. Kids play on a passenger jeepney toppled (one would notice the "Jesus is Lord") during the onslaught of typhoon...

A family eats on planks of wood just outside their still flooded home

Amidst this situation, Filipinos have never stop showing kindness. They still manage to show their true spirit of ‘bayanihan’, its most distinct and unique Filipino trait that has been part of their culture for ages. Even before the floods subsided completely, civilians of all ages had helped mobilize and rescue and relief efforts were underway. Government step up it’s clean up drive to prevent the outbreak of disease and clogging of drainage. Facebook, Twitter, e-mails and text messages carried news about which relief centres needed which goods the most. Local and international churches mobilized. Families supports and shared the grief. Friends sympathized. Colleagues extends donations. International charitable organizations, even students were motivated to raise funds for relief. Hundreds of relief operations were conducted. Rescue efforts are still on-going. Help for typhoon relief continue to pour.... People around the globe were touched and moved. People are compelled to give and aid at this time of need.

Now all that's left is to clean up and cope. The aftermath has already passed by, so now we are just having to deal with the tragedy and the loss of life. My heart really goes out to the victims... But things that I am so proud about Filipinos? Filipinos are resilient, persevering, resourceful and by God, forever searching for that silver lining... They are always ready to pick up the pieces. More than willing enough to start anew and move on with their lives, no matter how hard it is. No matter what kind of calamities, storms and adversities they’ve gone through, there is always the will to survive. That is because Filipinos hearts are always full of HOPE and optimism. There is always the sense of trust in God and humanity. The presence of anticipation that God’s provision will come along the way. Filipinos are faithful and so is God! With great gratitude and beaming faces, they will and are ready to face another brighter day. I take pride in the fact that Filipinos can take whatever fate they deal with...and has always emerge stronger than ever..

The life we live nowadays is never safe anymore. There’s always the parallel risk surrounding to it –- natural disaster, economic downfall, environmental concerns, global warming, virus outbreak, political plight, terrorism, cultural chaos. We can never be hundred percent secure anywhere, anymore at all. However, on the positive note, we can always find assurance and security in the presence of our Creator. When storm like this hits – who do you wanna call? GOD. Yes, God it is. Because we can find refuge and protection in Him. He extends His hands to everyone who comes to Him. And he gives His grace and mercy to every mankind. All it takes is an acknowledgement that He is the ultimate provider of all things. God can and will provide exactly what we need and when we need it, for His timing is perfect.

At the end of it all , we get the chance to see the greatness and goodness of our Lord God and the compassion in the hearts of others too. It is very comforting to know that we can always find strength and hope in Him specially at times like this....

each new day

It’s quiet. It’s early. Outside it’s still dark. Morning hasn’t broken yet. All around me are still in their slumber sleep. In a little while, a new day is coming. New every morning. The stillness of the dawn will be exchanged for the noise of a new day…..The solitude of a morning will be replaced and invaded by the decisions to be made and deadlines to be met.

For the next twelve hours, I will all over again be exposed to the day’s demands and again, I have to make a choice. And I am free to choose…between right and wrong decisions…

But I’d rather choose goodness.
And if I succeed, I will give Him thanks
And if I fail, I will seek His grace
And then when this day is done,
I will rest my head on my pillow and rest

So that I can draw physical and spiritual strength from Him again...

Ready to face another new day.

what if ONE?

what if one makes a change?
what if one observes a little kindness?
what if one treats other people right?
what if one lives a life with a good-natured attitude?
what if one lives a daily life with genuine gratitude?

what if one recognizes your inner beauty?
what if one notices your talents?
what if one appreciates your work?
what if one works humbly and diligently?

what if one stops creating noise?
what if one listens to a tiny voice?
what if one exists in harmony?
what if one advocates unity?

what if one stops being a bully?
what if one stops harassing a person?
what if one ends racial discrimination?

what if one stops criticizing skin color?
what if one respects and treats others equally?

what if one disciplines a difficult child?
what if one accepts the weakness of his/her child?
what if one obeys and honors their parents?
what if one forgives a fallen sibling?
what if one speaks up and open up their true feelings?
what if one admits a mistake and be sorry for it?
what if one allows a second chance and forgets the past?

what if one open arms to those who are alone and lonely?
what if one open doors to those who are searching for opportunity?
what if one hears the cry out of the needy?
what if one feeds a child who is hungry?
what if one responds to a devastating crisis?

what if one picks up a clutter?
what if one recycle a bottle?
what if one choose reusable containers?
what if one say no to plastic bags over the counter?

what if one loves another as God loves us?
what if one love his enemy?
what if one encourages those who are depressed?
what if one seeks for the truth?
What if one believes?
what if one serves the church?
what if one discerns the purpose of our existence?
what if one shares the good news to others?

what if one protects the safety of our children?
what if one stops stalking and harassing women?
what if one stops abusing and hurting wives?
what if one stops luring and offending young teenagers?
what if one brings dependence and addiction to an end?

what if one be taught how to read and write?
what if one recognizes the value of education?
what if one realizes that history is made out of fine prints?
what if one grasps knowledge even through hard-earned studies?
what if one understands the philosophy of human nature and the ethics of human race?
What if one wishes for wisdom instead of intelligence?

what if one steps up and take a lead?

what if one wants to be a better person?

what if one helps to change peoples' lives?

would it make any difference?

If you and I will do ONE simple thing and make a difference, this world would be much better and safer place to live.

With one thought,
One act,
One heart,
One world,
It all takes but ONE.

who am i?

Who am I? This is a very peculiar question that demands uninhibited and utmost honest response. I have been trying to reflect this myself. How can I define my very self without being self-conscious, self-centered, egotistical, and vain? I had never anticipated that such process could be perplexing, although it sound easy and simple as it may seem. Trying to analyze my very existence and recognizing my own identity is undeniably difficult, stimulating and thought-provoking. I totally felt so compelled to give a glimpse of the true me.

As far as my knowledge is concerned, I am conceived and born unique. I am me, myself and I. There is no one else like me, only one of its kind. I have my own individuality and personality. I have my own mind, feelings, needs and dreams. Apart from my physical features, characteristics, mental attributes, and social standpoint, I am molded, reared and taught with a distinct tradition, culture, beliefs and values.

I am a person who values trust, unconditional love and a steadfast relationship. I am just but like any other individual who seeks self-worth, respect and little appreciation. I am not perfect, but had learned to accept my inadequacies, faults and shortcomings, and always strive to work everything to the best of my ability. I try to aim at higher aspirations in life as mediocrity seems to lack its creativeness and challenges that I constantly crave. I seem to know too much about everything and nothing. And no matter how much knowledge and experiences I acquire, the more insignificant I become.

As I seek and ponder more on the subject, couple of questions also came to my mind -- Where I came from? Why I exist? It is written in the Holy Bible that our Almighty Creator brought everything into existence from nothing by His Holy Word. Thus, I simply exist because of Him and survive through Him. And that God knows and loves me even before I was born as He has an ultimate and unique plan for me, just designed and carved specifically for my name.

It is so amazing that He knows exactly how many number of hairs I have, what I have gone through, which way I have taken on and what destiny lies ahead of me. He knows how far I can get, how strong and weak I can be. He knows exactly what my pains, struggles, and fears were consist of, and knows too well how to comfort, heal, sustain and strengthen me. I know for sure, that God loves me for who I am and He wants me to live a life that is pleasing to His eyes and a life that is fulfilling to His glory.

I am created in His own image, blessed with traits, qualities and gifts so that I can be a blessing to others. I am aware that I have a free will to choose from between good and evil, and carries with me a discerning wisdom to guide me in overcoming troubles, temptations and tribulations. I enjoy a life to the fullest through His abundance and grace, and at difficult times when things go wrong and start to fall apart, I just learn to let go and let God pick up the pieces for me. I draw inner strength and peace from Him alone. I can't imagine living in this dying world without God's guidance.

I can also be perceived possessing the characteristics of being sensitive, sympathetic, supportive and appreciative. Family and friends see me as an outspoken, determined, and sensible woman, mother and wife - roles are not enumerated in order, or for that matter. I am capable and apt of becoming fixed on my own thoughts and emotions.

I am confident and assertive but also tend to show lack of self-esteem and sense of worth in some areas. I am generally reliable, consistent, and occasionally prudent when it is necessary. I have a great capacity for a genuine friendship and can develop and nurture deep and meaningful relationship. I am reasonably articulate, almost perfectionist yet, deep within, constantly feels insecure and shy.

Every so often, I can be exasperatingly cautious, skeptical and overly analytic over nothing of importance. But on the positive side, I am absolutely even tempered, motivating, modest and slow to anger, disliking quarreling and ill-feeling. But if provoked, however, I can also burst into a frustration.

I have learned great lessons in life and still learning from my own experiences, challenges, mistakes and misgivings that I have encountered day after day. I have met different and fascinating people from all walks of life, and I have dealt with couple of most difficult situations in the process, but I had never been distracted nor involved in any emotional entanglements. Though I constantly thrive to pursue happiness, fulfillment and success in life, I am far more comfortable to live a simple and healthy kind of life.

I also consider myself as a keen witted-learner, always insatiable for a heap of informative knowledge. I read a plethora of books as I like to read every single bit of information. I have this constant thirst for far more genuine and revealing piece of art. It is my passion to discover, to explore, to understand, to gain knowledge of, to be taught of and to learn and to unravel things for constant continuous learning.

Though I may be old-fashioned in values, classic in interests and romantic as I am, however, I am a gentle, doting and disciplinarian mother of two, a fulfilled, dedicated and committed wife, a woman of strong spiritual faith and most of all a genuine friend who is a fun loving, open, warm, and takes comfort in a cozy conversation with my husband. I indulge and enjoy at the company of my children. I take pride and joy at the art works of my son and poetry of my daughter. I am grateful for my husband's hard work and dedications. I find happiness when the sun shines. I am thankful for all people that give joy into my life.

I am capable of writing on and on about myself, my strengths and weaknesses, but I can never truly define, describe and recognize my own inner self. And with all honesty, I simply cannot draw a narrow conclusion as to who really I am as I am still continuously searching for the very essence of my existence. Taking all into consideration, I believe my identity is still in the process as per God's plan and will for me. There are numerous things in life that can define me but I would like to be defined by the most important people in my life.

My real identity, worth and significance, certainly conclude that-- I become the person I am only because of who I live for, who I live with, and how I live by.

But then again, who am i?